يَا أَيُّهَا النَّبِيُّ قُل لِّأَزْوَاجِكَ وَبَنَاتِكَ وَنِسَاءِ الْمُؤْمِنِينَ يُدْنِينَ عَلَيْهِنَّ مِن جَلَابِيبِهِنَّ ۚ ذَٰلِكَ أَدْنَىٰ أَن يُعْرَفْنَ فَلَا يُؤْذَيْنَ ۗ وَكَانَ اللَّهُ غَفُورًا رَّحِيمًا

“O Prophet, tell your wives and your daughters and the women of the believers to bring down over themselves [part] of their outer garments. That is more suitable that they will be known and not be abused. And ever is Allah Forgiving and Merciful.”

اے پیغمبر اپنی بیویوں اور بیٹیوں اور مسلمانوں کی عورتوں سے کہہ دو کہ (باہر نکلا کریں تو) اپنے (مونہوں) پر چادر لٹکا (کر گھونگھٹ نکال) لیا کریں۔ یہ امر ان کے لئے موجب شناخت (وامتیاز) ہوگا تو کوئی ان کو ایذا نہ دے گا۔ اور خدا بخشنے والا مہربان ہے

(Surah Ahzab:59)

It could be the hardest decision any muslimah take in her life. When I came across this ayah, i read and listened different Tafaseer of scholars, related to this ayah, searched about the dress code, looked into my closest with the critical eye whether I have modest dresses that could save me from wearing another layer over it. How and when I can avoid this 2nd layer. You can say I was trying to avoid as much I can. For few days I didn’t go out just to make sure, as I wasn’t ready to wear it. My nafs was complaining and saying it’s a burden, you are already wearing a hijab, you don’t use any cosmetic, you don’t do this and that, so you are not attractive for na-mahram and you are not showing off your self. In short, I was doing all excuses I can, and was battling, as my inner was not convinced with my logics because it is command of Allah and it is said to all believing women. How come I could segregate myself from this honor? My heart won the fight, and I started wearing it alhamdulilah.

But today, an amazing incident happened, I was coming out of Doctor’s clinic, one lady who was sitting at the distance, praised my black abaya by saying it’s so pretty hijab (for a moment I thought she is talking about my headscarf) so I went back and thanked her, she started conversation regarding the fabric, clothing, Islamic dress code, etc. when I saw her interest in islam, i took this as an opportunity and politely explain few concepts. She was telling how ill she is, and facing issues. Then, she told about her experience of visiting masjid in our area. I felt that she is pursuing real truth; as she told me her interest in listening of bilblical verses, and she also liked to go to church; similarly join other activities of different religions. Then she asked about the status of women in islam, as her own observation and knowledge was that muslim women are oppressed and doesn’t have more freedom.

To sum up, all that happens just because of my outer garment, subhanAllah. I am grateful that Allah swt has guided me towards the right decision and my garment became source of dawah. To me hijab and jilbab affect people in our surrounding in positive manner. I have interacted more people in last couple of days because of it. They are more interested to know why a Muslimah prefer to wear it, how much we are comfortable with it etc.

I am still progressing to better myself, it might be tough sometimes, but I know as with any journey, it takes time, dedication and commitment to fully love and appreciate what you do for the sake of Allah.

My idea of writing this post, is to comfort my sisters that their struggle is for good reason, and we are doing dawah by wearing an ayah. So keep going, inshAllah a big reward is waiting for us and you are an inspiration for others, none knows when our modesty ll turn anyone towards Allah swt.

If you like this post, please do share your experiences in the comments.